Chelsea


I am 20 years old and have had migraines since I was two. My migraines were so bad that I became immune to Tylenol, Ibuprofen, Advil, and Aleve. I have gone to doctor after doctor, but they only look at MRIs and tell me that nothing is wrong. [Tweet this.] Then I found yoga, which helped to cut the number of migraines in a week.

My migraines can last up to 72 hours. I try to explain how I feel to my boss, friends, family, or anyone who doesn’t suffer, but they don’t understand. At the beginning of my migraine, I can’t talk, I can’t think, I am completely out of it, and I can’t understand what people are saying. I just want to go lie down for a bit. It gets steadily worse. All sound hurts and just needs to stop. I don’t understand why people can’t lower their voices, why they can’t do things more quietly. You know what it’s like when you’re in a dark room and someone suddenly turns on a light? The pain that comes as you quickly close your eyes is how all light feels to me. The hardest part to explain is the throbbing, stabbing, constricting pain in my head and neck. It is indescribable. The only thing that relieves it is no light, no noise, either a cool room or a hot compress, and rocking – moving the upper half of my body back and forth or rubbing my head in a circular motion. I can’t lie down, and I can’t stand up because it hurts too much. As sitting hurts the least, it’s the only option.

The only way that I can explain the end of my migraine is to suggest you think of a charley horse in your calf. You know the weird ache after it’s gone? That’s how my brain feels. And this is the worst part of my migraine. I know that the tiniest thing can set off a brand new migraine at this stage. I have to take another dose of meds and eat a little bit so I don’t get another migraine. I can’t sleep too much, and I can’t move too much. I need to act as if I have the flu and lie down doing nothing.

Throughout all of my migraines, I want to cry, go to the doctor and have him fix it. I want just a little rest for my brain. I haven’t really found anything that will make them go away. Most of the time, quick fixes are lies, and migraines like mine are debilitating. I wish I could say that I didn’t take as much medicine as I do because I am right on the line of the fear of overdosing, but I can’t take any less. I honestly would rather die than have the pain without the meds. The only relief is knowing I survived another one. [Tweet this.]